cupcake

you know those days when you just feel not so good about yourself but your trying really hard to be optimistic but something small is just eating at you, bothering you and making you feel "off"?

okay maybe i'm just crazy. 

BUT. those of you who have felt like this...please enter my day today of that kind of feeling. i started my new job as a nanny to the most adorable twin girls (such a huge blessing for us) and i was so excited to start! everything went so well there. but i didn't feel my full self all day. i had to run to Sams on the way home to use a coupon we got for a free rotisserie chicken and free cupcakes. neither me or hunter like cupcakes so i wasn't planning on getting them. then i decided i would just look...well thats all it took. cause they looked DEVINE. and they were free so what the heck right?

i go home eat dinner, and plan on taking a cupcake over for Noah and Jade to try (thinking nothing of it, we share food all the time). as i was about to walk out the door i remembered how i felt bleh and quickly remembered how whenever i'm feeling bad about myself the best cure is to make someone else happy. this someone is our neighbor. his name is Bill. the only interaction we've had is saying "hi" and "how are you" when we happen to leave at the same time or see each other outside. but he is one of the nicest people! so that was the person that i was going to serve, so that i would change my focus on someone else, even if it did nothing for them- it would for me. i put a cupcake on a paper plate and wrote a little note on it, set it in front of his door, knocked twice and then hurried down the stairs. at first i was just going to scurry along but when i got to the bottom i decided to just wait. i heard him open the door, then a few seconds went by, then i heard him do a little happy giggle to himself. as soon as i heard his reaction i got a smile on my face and walked away as he shut the door. that simple act over powered any of the negative thoughts or worries i was having.

i don't share this to let you see what i've done, but just to remind myself and others that serving others and making other peoples day and being selfless really is what happiness feels like. my goal is to "give one cupcake away" every day, even if its a really good day.

i don't even love cupcakes and i agree with this ^^