love your life

oh, hello again. i feel like our life took off full throttle and this is the first minute i've had to sit and gather my thoughts and write in my journal and slow down a bit.

of course, we have had our down time together which i cherish SO much now. i feel like i never see my husband anymore (i do, but you know what i mean). always at work or school, and same for Hunter.

i asked Hunter to give me a priesthood blessing the night before school started. i was feeling a little stressed and nervous for all the tasks that were about to hit me in the face like a train. it was such a cool, amazing experience to have my husband lay his hands on my head and receive revelation for me from God. it gave me much comfort and hope for whats ahead of us in our lives!

as school has started there has been a lot for me to think about and figure out. the first week i had thoughts like, "am i really suppose to go to school?", "what will i even do with this degree when i'm done?", and "am i doing what is best for our family?". at times i felt like Hunter should be going to school instead of me right now and that i can sacrifice what i've learned to love. but...no. all my questions have been answered through my sweet husband who is beyond supportive and so loving about how busy i've been, my teachers and peers who inspire me and give me hope in myself, and through small prayers throughout the day to help me know and realize that this is right for me.

all i need to do is find balance in my life. to remember to ALWAYS put God first, and Hunter. and the rest will happen and "get done". right now i should be focusing on creating who i am and what my abilities are. i just need to jump in and take STEPS. i can accomplish what i desire. i have that strength. i don't have a limit or time limit of what i can learn and what i can do. i don't need to plan out my life of whats ideal and what the world would think or what logic would think is best. i need to do what i love and gain all the knowledge possible, cause honestly thats what i'm taking with me when i die.

most importantly, LOVE LIFE. that is why we are here, to find joy and to have joy. thats my conclusion, to love my life. whether its wonderful, stressful, hard, sad, exciting, whatever it may be.