as of late

i believe that every hour, every day, every week, we can start over new and try again. it doesn't have to be new years or sunday. i seriously do this so much, and i will continue to until i get it right! haha. its been weird sitting...relaxing...not having much responsibility- except for to feed hunter, clean the house, do the laundry- because since the moment i left on my mission until the moment we got to NC i was constantly doing something whether it was serving, work, family, or school. i got in the groove of feeling very productive to going back to having a TON of free time.

i've had the strongest desire to DO MORE, be inspired, learn more, read more, create more, etc. etc. etc. but for some reason its been so hard?! its like all the motivation has been sucked out of me and something is holding me back! hunter keeps telling me to, "just chill! you'll never be able to have so much time to yourself ever again. just relax kels." i'm trying to listen to that.

i came out here with a lot of goals-- projects i wanted to make, things i wanted to explore, books i wanted to read, places i wanted to go, friends i wanted to make. i literally have a pinterest board for it. (good news is--there are other wives out here that are so sweet! today one of them and i went "thrifting". its always a hit or miss--i hit a $3 skirt. also went to the World Market..new obsession.)

the past couple of weeks at church and throughout the week, i've been seeking for motivation and energy and commitment to be more useful with my time and feel good about each day. i prayed so hard for it after theee loonnnggessstt week ever. it was dreadful. the next week i felt so much of heavenly fathers hand just pushing me along, helping me feel useful and successful throughout the day. yes, i got a lot more done and accomplished some goals...it took me longer as it lasted the whole day but it felt so GOOD.

i am so grateful for a loving god who cares about what i care about and cares about what YOU care about. i'm still working on it each hour of each day. 

success of the day= i FINALLY got my new sewing machine set up!! i can't wait to use it!